Life is sparkly

I want to go to a Sauna tomorrow.

I've never been to a Sauna.

I'm ill again. Fan-freakin tastic. I went swimming and refused to swim without the thing. Meh. You know when you know you should and can do something but you just cannot make yourself do it?
On the plus side I'm getting on better with my mum. We still argue about everything and anything, but it's starting to be more... close. Like I randomly started having a conversation with her about boys. Something I hardly ever talked to her about.

Club and dance tomorrow. Wa-hoo.

I'm going to go and watch Everybody Hates Chris.

byebye

Don't try and cry, baby
don't turn and walk away
if you think you can face it, darling
why don't you stop there and stay?
You pretend your hearts breaking
you say your all alone
you say you spend your nights crying
and spend all day at home
your trying to win sympathy
warmth, generosity and empathy
your trying to get some prize
thats why you use that disguise.
Baby, tbh, your pathetic, you see
you think you can win both her and me
you think somehow you can have it all
and still complain you have nothing at all
you pray on little children
the young and old alike
basically, no one is safe
from your pervy sight.
Baby, did you really think
you could have it all
that you could act like such a freak
and still be all proud and tall?
You think you can be harsh
but you run from the truth
you think you can call me heartless
when all I am is aloof.
Baby I know you won't hear it
but here it is all the same
your nothing but a liar
playing a sad little game
grow up baby, grow up and see
see what your making your life be.

Conflict Resolution was fun. Dance was tyring but fun. I'm starting to get ill again but I've decided I will not get ill. I will be well tomorrow. Which is why I'm going to go to bed soon.
I also did something vaguely towards bueaty= I painted one hands nails. Not both, but one. And I'm going to brush my hair after it's dried. I over do things too much, either I'm incredibly vain and complain all the time and expect nothing but compliments, or I go the oppisit and have no care at all about what I look like, which isin't always good. I still won't wear makeup though. I am def. allergic to my old conceiler.

Wahey for life. Am starting back at GCSE stuff tomorrow. And all my classes are back on. It'll stop me eating so much. Seriously. I eat too much. I don't care about putting on weight, but I doubt it's healthy to eat as much chocolate.
I am starting to need orange juice. Seriously. I can't function without some orange juice. Some people are addicted to Cocain, Alcahol or Tobbaco... I'm addicted to Chocolate and Orange Juice.
Wahey.

I need to stop being so harsh. It's annoying though, I'm actually telling people the truth but no one wants to hear it. But if you don't have a chance with someone, or you actually look rubbish in something, you should be able to listen to it. It's not like I'm trying to break your bloody life. I'm trying to help.

I want a man of the midnight.
xxx

I had actually forgotten how much fun it is to be lazy. I am enjoying reading books for a change. And watching TV. Haha. Seriously, I haven't been properly lazy and done nothing for ages.

I'm not a fucking sex toy. You don't get the sex without the other shit. I'm sorry but I'm not like that anymore. If you want me, you get all or nothing.

Went to Norfolk today. Rob and Em's house is amazing. It's right by the sea and just wow.
And it was great seeing them too as well. I've never really talked to Em, but she's /really/ nice. And it's always nice to see Rob. He's such a nice boy it's actually weird.

Byebyes

Urgh. I am not drinking again. For a while. And when I do I WON'T chug champaign.

It was nice seeing Emily and Saoirse, even if I brought them to a sort of normal/un otherwise club people hell where no one was sociable.
'cos I'm just such a nice friend.
Ehhhhhh well.
Half term eh?

FINALLY done my Sociology Homework. I actually did schoolie type stuff for about three hours. I got myself a proper folder and put all my stuff into it, I worked on my Lady Macbeth essay, I wrote a story (not sure if I'll give it in or not) and I did my sociology. Was going to do Latin but I need a break or I'll faint.
How the hell do schoolies manage this? One day and I'm ready to give up all education and live in a hut somewhere.
Maybe you get used to it. Makes me wonder how so many school friends get to be on MSN so much.

Ball on Saturday , Saoirse, your meeting me and Logan and Keira at about.. I'd say 7:15 at Nottinghill gate station (on the centeral line), on Saturday, if nothing gets changed. Tell Emily eh?

And Norwhich on sunday, I get to see Rob and Emily

Wahey for blogging.

I'm not very happy today. I'm going to eat food and watch DVDs.

I'm in a creative mood, so I'll torture you people with some poems eh?

Dreams come, dreams go
just smile, go with the flow
don't say you care
laugh and smile, float on air
no matter how much you go through
it's not enough
what do you have to do
to become tough?
Why do you want to become made of stone
nothing real, cold as ice?
If your cold inside and out
your really not alive at all.

I want to be happy.

I woke up coughing and feeling sick. I've been ill for about three weeks and it wasn't long before that that I was ill again.
This can't be healthy.

Went to Aldershot yesterday. (sunday). was fun.